Kylie. New York. 18.
This is strictly a personal blog. I don't reblog here, instead I vent, I write, and I don't worry about who reads it because, honestly no one really does. If you happen to stumble upon this, you're of course free to read. However, keep in mind that what I write here is completely unrestrained. I say exactly what I feel, no matter how inappropriate, mean, rude, or spiteful it may be. It's uncensored and does not play by society's rules, and that's the way it was meant to be.

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Ah tonight was perfect. I went to the Eroom and saw some nice friendly faces. Then I went to Beer Belli since Alex invited me, he said he was with some other ESFers. I went, not really thinking about the fact that I wouldn’t know anyone. But it was great! I meant a bunch of new friends and recruited a few SUOC members and got a little drunk. Overall a great night full of many laughs.

Boy am I glad school has started.
And that I live within a block of a couple of great bars.

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We’ve become so desensitized

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I’m going to complain about how awful this day is so I can get it out of my system and move on.
-ESF dropped me from my lab section and assigned me to a new one without even telling me. And the new one is during the outing club meetings which are mandatory for me since I’m the treasurer. 
-The only other open lab section in Thursday nights 6-9 which SUCKS for so many reasons but mainly that that’s when eroom hours are and that means I’ll have to miss trivia night too at the bar next door to the eroom. It also means my bike has a much higher chance of being stolen since it’ll be on campus after dark. 
-I also am scheduled to work next thursday during my new lab time, as my only shift all week. 
-I can’t even email my new availably or anyone to ask to cover my shift because for some reason my email isn’t working, so I need to fix that.
-Also I can’t get my school email address to work on my phone..

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Ha so I’m watching Hook for the time and I’m high and dude it’s like think of a happy thought and you can fly and that’s exactly how I feel you need to be when on drugs hehe

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So Jake is coming to Syracuse in a few months. It’s gotten to the point where I like him so much I feel like I can’t really see anyone else. It’s such a confusing situation. He’ll probably get this job in Washington, which means he’s literally on the other side of the country indefinitely. So should I really be holding on off on other potential guys for him? 

I just can’t imagine not being single when he comes.

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It really is crazy how much I miss him. 
I feel like miss can’t even be the right word, since we honestly never spent that much time together. 
I think it’s just the feeling of knowing. Knowing you should be together, be having adventures and plunging into eachother’s souls and not being able to have that connection. 
We talk and it gives us a glimpse. I slight view into what things would be like if we were here together. 
I smile so wide. I see him and wish I could touch him. Just brush up against him. 
I want him here. For good. To be mine.
These drunken thoughts. 
Disconnected.
Nonsensical. 
But mine, in this present moment.
To be laughed at by tomorrow. 
Written though to remember and recall this moment of serene yet heartache.
Missing him.
Missing us. 
That day at EForest. 
The best day.
Laying around, looking at each other.
Seeing each other.
Wanting each other. 
Those are the days I want back.
Soon enough. 
I dream.

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My theory is there’s so many dumb people today simply because odds and evolution. Longer back, the smarter people had a higher success at first at surviving and later on at reproducing, sot those genes were passed down. However, later on, it became less important of how smart you are when reproducing. This would cause an increase of the amount of people with stupid genes. Also it’d be the generally least smart people having the most amount of kids, and is still that way today.

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It’s amazing how much those messages make me smile

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Cooperstown

I went to Cooperstown for the weekend with Matt Rhodin to visit Emilie Rigby. Matt and I were running on about 4 hours of sleep because we had drank the night before at the bar then at Matt’s, and ended up staying up until about 4 (which Matt got reemed about by his landlord in front of everyone the next morning.)
We headed out around 10 or 11, and I decided to take back roads there instead of the dreaded 90. It was such a beautiful day with sun and blue skies, with nice little puffy clouds everywhere. Though we were running on little sleep I still felt fantastic and somehow very energized. We talked pretty much the entire way and it was a very enjoyable ride.
We found our way to Emilies easily and arrived at her parent’s house, which was absolutely incredible. There we met Emilie’s friend Alex and decided to go Ommegang Brewery.
We stopped at Alex’s lake house first to get Emilie’s wallet and ended up staying there a little while and took a little swim. We met Alex’s dog Aiko who I fell in love with! He’s the cutest border collie I ever did see.
Next we went to Ommegang, had some fantastic beer, and ate some amazing food. Then we walked up to the grasses hillside and I sat while the 3 of them tossed around a frisbee (still on crutches at this point.)
Next we headed back to Alex’s house where I played fetch with Aiko for a solid 3 hours, at least! He just has so much energy it’s nuts. We hung around there for a while then headed to Emilie’s parent’s house. There we ended up having dinner with Emilie’s super nice parents, then finally we headed out to Emilie’s lake house, though a bit later than planned.
Emilie’s lake house is incredible! There’s a GIANT gorgeous window that covers the entire far wall that faces the lake so you have this amazing view. There we met Emilie’s other friend Josh then later her other friend Peter. Alex had stayed back at his house. There we relaxed and drank beers and laughed and had lots of fun! We played cards against humanities for a while, then a short but fun game of stumps, then went down to the fire. I went and looked at the stars for a while- they were seriously amazing. Then I joined them at the fire and entered my new favorite game, S’Kay. It’s basically fire jenga. We sat around the fire for quite a while, had some good talks that gravitated towards sex which was funny. Matt ended up throwing up, and I did later that night because of the stinkin wine. We ended up having a cuddle puddle (Matt, Emilie and I) though I insisted Emilie be in the middle to avoid being next to Matt. 

The next day we moseyed around camp slowly. Matt got ready to leave to bike to Little Falls for his climbing trip and we all slowly cleaned the place up. After Matt and Josh left (Peter had left early that morning for work,) Emilie took out the kayaks and paddled over about a mile to an island where we hung out for a bit. We very slowly kayaked back, mainly floating and talking. 
Once we got back to the house we decided to head over to Emilie’s parent’s house since they’d want to see her since it was her birthday and all. There we played in her backyard with her dog Effy for the rest of the time and looked at plants and she showed me a bunch of edible ones! Eventually I had to get going so I could pick up Matt at Little Falls and head home.

Overall it was a very relaxing weekend with absolutely beautiful weather and great company!

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